Rebel

I saw my baby yesterday. The tiny little thing 1.23 centimeters long. Too small and underdeveloped at this stage to really see any shape other than a blob. Yet even at such a small size the heart is formed and beating. It was such an amazing experience to see the twinkle of my baby's almost microscopic heart beating.

I think that the fact that I was going to have a baby had finally settled down and became "old news." Seeing my baby certainly took this reality to another level. I can feel my attachment and love for this life growing with each stage and each day that goes by as we approach the day of its birth. Again, I can't wait.

Driving home yesterday I was struck by the awesomeness (not said in a surfer voice) of God. As I drove, watching the sunset, I couldn't help but think that the same God that created the universe that has sunsets of purple, blue, green, yellow, pink, orange, almost every color found in nature, is right now forming my child. Hair and eye color, its body type, its shoe size, will it be artistic or not, the size its feet will be, its personality. Carefully and with great intention, He is creating a plan for this child. I can only hope and pray that I will direct my child to its creator.